Long ago I struggled with self-worth, self-compassion, my own enoughness. I played life small. I waited on the sidelines to be invited into the bigger game.
20 years ago I couldn’t imagine the person I’d be today. I was stuck in the middle of being who I thought everyone wanted me to be. I was stuck in the middle of my own unreasonable expectations of perfection. I was stuck and it felt like I was drowning.
Maybe it was yoga. Maybe it was breast cancer. Maybe it was losing a life I carefully created to look perfect on the outside. Maybe it was being somewhere in my in late 30’s or early 40’s and thinking what the fuck. Maybe it was all of it.
Through years of self-study, consistency in my yoga practice, and maybe a large helping of stubbornness, I found my voice. I found my center. I made peace with my pieces. I stopped looking outside myself for approval. I stopped second guessing myself. I stopped beating myself up for mistakes. I released the baggage I’d been carting around for decades.
I look back at the me 20 years ago. I still see her. I’m still her. Only better. Over the years I’ve allowed myself to be a work in progress. I’ve released the weight of unreasonable expectations, self judgement, and so much negative self talk.
I believe in myself. Enough to be curious, ask questions, explore, and experiment. On tough days (because days can be tough and super stressful) I roll out my yoga mat. I move. I breathe. I sit. I meditate.
I believe in myself. To go with the flow, allow life to unfold, to soak in the sun on slow summer days. On easy days (because days can be easy and drenched with joy) I roll out my yoga mat. I move. I breathe. I sit. I meditate.
Join me every Sunday evening at Hot Asana Yoga Studio, Hampstead NH, for Yin to Zen. 7-8:15pm.
March 10, 2020: I’m teaching Yin at Hot Asana at 4:15pm. I’m subbing in for the amazing Sharon.
Yoga Nidra in the Salt Cave on March 14th is sold out. The next class is April 11, 2020. When you register for class either through Venmo or PayPal, please include the following note: “Yoga Nidra in the Salt Cave on April 11.”
Like everyone, I’m keeping abreast of all the news on COVID 19. The best prevention of this and so many other viruses is to wash your hands with soap and water for 20 seconds. While you’re washing your hands, breathe deeply. Make it a mini meditation break.
I’ve also been looking at flights. And deciding how long I’ll be staying in Dublin before I head back to New Hampshire. I have 4 spots available for our yoga retreat in Spain.